wanna make a ray of sunshine

jeremy and i have been talking a lot about twins and sibling groups. we have come a long way on what we have decided. when we started the discussion we were both opposed to twins b/c it would be harder and didnt even want to consider siblings since one would be older. then the more i thought about it, the more at ease i felt about adopting twins. i talked to my aunt and co-worker who both had twins and they both told me to do it. they said that obviously it is more work, but there are more rewards too. and we liked the fact that the child would have a built in support group that had gone through the same process as them, looked like them and could relate to them better than anyone else could. jeremy was still unsure, but has been feeling a lot better about it, especially after i admitted that even though i want to do this, it still scares the crap out of me!

after we decided that we were open to twins, my thoughts shifted towards not only being open to twins but a sibling group as well. this scared jeremy even more, b/c they would be different ages and we would have to learn how to parent each of them differently. after talking about it a lot, we decided that we would be open to it as long as the oldest child wasnt older than 3yrs. so we'll see how that actually pans out when we apply and learn more about the process.

i am to the point that i dont think i would want to accept only one child, but i would also hate to turn down a child just b/c there is only one.....so much to think and pray about!

but for now, my tea and book are waiting for me!


listening: the weepies
reading: notes from the hyena's belly: an ethiopian boyhood